As we embark on this new school year, I can’t help but look back to all the times I’ve fallen apart just because of school.
I’ve always put pressure on myself when it comes to academics. Part of it is because that’s the only validation I can hold on to. I didn’t grow up with a pretty face and good socialization skills, so I never got compliments.
One day, I got the highest score in the class, and everyone complimented me. Joy and happiness flow through my veins. As if I was being held tight and was safe.
“What should I do when I already set an idea in their minds that I was smart? Failing can never be an option, right?”
I strived hard to be the best. I gave it my all to pass every subject. But as the sun rises and falls once more — it’s inevitably impossible.
“I can’t always be the best” is a phrase I can’t seem to utter. It’s like bitter candy I’m forced to swallow. But it’s true. I can’t be perfect. I can’t always be smart.
This new school year, I hope you know how much intelligence you have inside of you that no amount of validation can top it.
I know it’s hard to fail sometimes, but learn from it, take it as a lesson, and carry it with you moving forward.
I’m proud of you for striving hard to be your best. I hope you know that it’s okay to pause and take a rest.
Whenever countless assignments get thrown at you, take a moment to breathe. You will always get through it like you did the previous school year.
“Libre lang mangarap.” or in English “Dreaming is free.” is an example of striving hard without the need to prove everyone.
-A.L ౨ৎ ⋆｡˚
